Losttt.

Life... every time we find a purpose, something makes sure to DESTROY  it... within a damn second-BAM! everything's changing: one second you're happy and then another second brings the worst pain in this world, the worst feeling, the feeling of LOSS... You lose someone dear, someone close, a part of your life, a part of you, a part of the meaning of this unfairness! You JUST lose... It's like a huge hole  being punched in your chest, along with pain, emptiness,nonsense. And what's the worst?!!! You can do nothing to change it. "Nothing" perfectly describes it all. You can scream, cry, go crazy, it's whatever, you can't change a damn thing! Words, are also useless. Just a thought that someone so special and so dear to you might just not be with you anymore, he/she won't breathe on this world, won't smile, move, live.... That's insane! I know, I have heard 10000000000000000 of times expressions like "That's life" or "Time will heal" or "Everybody dies"... But as I said, WORDS ARE COMPLETELY USELESS! Even time will never heal... yeah, you will continue your life, you will eventually go on, but there will always be the empty hole and the pain will never leave... Coping, is what we call it! The FACT of loss is not fitting in my head... I can't fight it, I can't understand it, I can't deal with it, I can't forget it... then what's the meaning? cause I don't see one.