My Life List

 “Try as much as possible to be wholly alive, with all your might, and when you laugh, laugh like hell and when you get angry, get good and angry. Try to be alive. You will be dead soon enough.”
                                                                                                                          ~William Saroyan

This quote couldn’t have said more… We have to be alive every single day. I really, truly know what it feels like stop dreaming and making plans or especially taking steps towards your dreams… But we have to make plans, to achieve dreams and goals… that’s the ONLY way to stay alive, the only way to actually live. Even if it means just writing them down and taking one thing at a time. Achieve your dreams step by step maybe tomorrow, may be a week later, but no matter what write them down and go towards them, DO NOT forget about them, do not think they are impossible and unachievable. Because that there will be no point…. Just be alive…

So this is my Life list and it contains many things I want to do, achieve and see…They are little and big things may be some are ridiculous, weird, scary, extravagant or simple… The list will be added occasionally.

So here it is:
-AT LAST conquer my fears, all of them, become 100% fear-free

-Eat a dinner at Gordon Ramsay’s London restaurant with my husband

-Hold my baby boy (May 2013)

-Create something important, something needed and unforgettable, something worth my living and that will make a change

-Drive yellow Wolksvagen Juke

-Fluently speak French

-Open a REAL, NORMAL dog shelter in Yerevan

-A vacation in Maldives

-Have my own “crafting space” at home

-Create a personal recipe of the perfect desert

-Understand my father

-Be involved and carrying parent

-See my abs one day :))))

-Organise a food bank in Armenia

-Travel with Victor

-Make someone’s dream come true

-Finally learn to properly apply my eye-liner :)))

-Take a picture of me and Victor every day for a whole year

-Colour-code our closets

-Anonymously pay for someone else’s groceries and watch their reaction

-Have a wall calendar with all the birthdays and important dates

-Teach my child to be confident no matter what, but also be kind

-Have the strength to accept the things I am not able to change

-Watch my baby grow and learn every day….

-Have a job that I will love and enjoy

Pregnant thoughts && hormones :)

~Pregnancy is just so transcendent, inspiring, indescribable! I LOVE the little human growing inside me.... 

~14 weeks…. I don’t know you… we haven’t met yet… But I feel you; you are a piece of me…. And piece of HIM… The perfect half of us….

~You are a miracle… feelings consume me! I have never felt LOVE this pure, this BIG, never felt such care for anyone, never been so protective over anyone…

 ~We get so distracted by every-day events that forget what it’s like to feel, really feel something… You are making me feel....

 ~I hope you will love me as much as I loved HER….
 ~I have found my mother in me….After so much pain and grief, I am finding piece now… I have lost her, but I got her back again… this little human growing in me is bringing piece…and I recognize her in me, she arises in me, as I am a mother-to-be…

 ~Creating human is an amazing feeling...I feel powerful, overachieving and almighty! I feel womanly and motherly :) But most importantly... I FEEL.... ~So it's him.... my little man, my perfect little human being... My son... My gravity.... My baby... 14 more weeks and I can touch a miracle!

I AM ENOUGH

Life is crazy… every day routines we get lost in and the crazy sprint, racing moments, flashing thoughts, faces, voices and there is YOU… Sometimes I just stand in the middle of it all and try to find the lost myself. That’s true, it is easy to get lost and get behind it all. I effortlessly find myself misunderstood, misread, and misinterpreted! I just go by the flow and then suddenly realize that I lost myself, somewhere on the way, I forgot who I am, what I am made from and most importantly I forgot that I AM ENOUGH….